In our culture, Hajj is seen as something to be done in old age. I've gotten the impression that people take care of all their obligations and then finally go to Hajj, it may be when all their kids have completed high school or college or are married. When is the right time?
I didn't think that I would be considering hajj until later atleast a few more years. So I'm very confused at myself that a part of me wants to go and another part of me is saying that I"m insane (does that xcuse me then?). It wasn't my idea so am I becoming brainwashed by someone else's idea? Am I becoming influenced by a powerful talker?
Ok, I've been trying to reason with myself... Requirements for hajj are (1)Sanity (2)Muslim Adult (3) If you can afford (4) Physically able
Check for 2 & 4, Now 1 & 3 are subjective...
Sanity---- quite questionable. My friends are already questioning my sanity, especially my non-muslim ones and I'm afraid my family will question it too. I just don't understand why I want to go. I wasn't thinking about this 24 hours ago, why now? 24 hrs ago I was planning to work for the next few months with a relief organization abroad. But relief work had been going through my head for years and years and I was just trying to find the right time to go and my parents have been against me leaving US except on vaction to the 1st world. Oh no, they don't think lowely about the 3rd world, but they just don't think their kids can handle it. I've just had this extremely strong need to do relief work for years and years but how can I truly feel strong about something that occured to me less than 12 hours ago?
Affordability-----My first reaction was no way, I'm unemployed but I can afford it. I just think everyone will tell me i can't afford it. A bunch of excuses are running in my head. yup, Allah is the best of all providers...
I was afraid to go. At the thought of it being among so many people but being alone. Yes, I know, I know, we all wake up alone on the Day of judgement.
I don't know... I'm just so confused. Does all this confusion mean that my deen is weak?
So anyone planning on going? don't worry, I'm not asking to meet.
I didn't think that I would be considering hajj until later atleast a few more years. So I'm very confused at myself that a part of me wants to go and another part of me is saying that I"m insane (does that xcuse me then?). It wasn't my idea so am I becoming brainwashed by someone else's idea? Am I becoming influenced by a powerful talker?
Ok, I've been trying to reason with myself... Requirements for hajj are (1)Sanity (2)Muslim Adult (3) If you can afford (4) Physically able
Check for 2 & 4, Now 1 & 3 are subjective...
Sanity---- quite questionable. My friends are already questioning my sanity, especially my non-muslim ones and I'm afraid my family will question it too. I just don't understand why I want to go. I wasn't thinking about this 24 hours ago, why now? 24 hrs ago I was planning to work for the next few months with a relief organization abroad. But relief work had been going through my head for years and years and I was just trying to find the right time to go and my parents have been against me leaving US except on vaction to the 1st world. Oh no, they don't think lowely about the 3rd world, but they just don't think their kids can handle it. I've just had this extremely strong need to do relief work for years and years but how can I truly feel strong about something that occured to me less than 12 hours ago?
Affordability-----My first reaction was no way, I'm unemployed but I can afford it. I just think everyone will tell me i can't afford it. A bunch of excuses are running in my head. yup, Allah is the best of all providers...
I was afraid to go. At the thought of it being among so many people but being alone. Yes, I know, I know, we all wake up alone on the Day of judgement.
I don't know... I'm just so confused. Does all this confusion mean that my deen is weak?
So anyone planning on going? don't worry, I'm not asking to meet.

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