Today my brother's friend, Amir Fida Hussain, passed away. He leaves behind a wife and three children, a girl 7 years old, a boy 4 and a girl 7 months...He was diagnosed with brain tumor in the last stages, about which nothing could be done...
The reason I am posting this here, is because he left this world in front of my eyes and I could see it happen right in front of me...There have been few things which have shaken me so much from the inside like the passing of this man...
He was on life support as his brain had stopped working completely, he was only alive on machines. After the wife and family okayed the removal of the machines, they started removing all the machines in front of me. On the wall was a monitor which showed his heartbeat and pulse...
After the removal of all the machinery after about 15 minutes, his heartbeat started falling...At that time the only people around him were me, my sister-in-law, Amir bhai's wife and a Bohri Imam (Amir bhai was Bohri)...
My eyes were downcast and I was reciting Qul as much as I could, I kept glancing at the monitor...It was at 108 then slowly started going down to 86, 77, 56, 44, 33 in just a few seconds...At that time I didn't feel much, then suddenly his heartbeat shot up to 108 again, but then again started falling...This time a thought came to my mind, a frightening thought...He is dying and he is going to face the Creator...All the doors of repentance had been closed, everything that he could do for Allah :swt: had been done, his bag was packed...
As soon as the heartbeat started falling again, this thought kept growing inside me...I had to step outside the ICU for a minute to collect myself...I went back back in and saw him lying there, his heartbeat had become steady between 50 and 60, that's when tears fell from my eyes...I kept reciting Quls...Then suddenly his heartbeat started falling again, 44, 32, 26, 14 then 0...
I saw Amir bhai meet his death with whatever he had gained in this world...Whatever he had earned for the hereafter he took with him, and whatever he earned for Duniya, he left here...I was shaken and a cold feeling came over me...Ya Allah, will I be ready to meet You? Will I be in a condition to be in Your favour or disfavour? What if everything I had ever done was wasted because my intentions were wrong, what if none of my prayers, my good deeds, my works were thrown in my face and I was in Allah :swt:'s disfavour...
Ya Allah, guide the Muslims...Ya Allah, forgive our sins, Ya Allah, forgive our mistakes, Ya Allah, we are blind and have no eyes to see properly, lead us and guide us, Ya Allah make us worthy to be in your favour, Ya Allah, save us from your wrath which is terrible and bless us with your mercy which is limitless...Ya Allah guide us, Ameen...
Inna-Lillah-e-Wa-Inna-Ilaih-e-Rajioon...
The reason I am posting this here, is because he left this world in front of my eyes and I could see it happen right in front of me...There have been few things which have shaken me so much from the inside like the passing of this man...
He was on life support as his brain had stopped working completely, he was only alive on machines. After the wife and family okayed the removal of the machines, they started removing all the machines in front of me. On the wall was a monitor which showed his heartbeat and pulse...
After the removal of all the machinery after about 15 minutes, his heartbeat started falling...At that time the only people around him were me, my sister-in-law, Amir bhai's wife and a Bohri Imam (Amir bhai was Bohri)...
My eyes were downcast and I was reciting Qul as much as I could, I kept glancing at the monitor...It was at 108 then slowly started going down to 86, 77, 56, 44, 33 in just a few seconds...At that time I didn't feel much, then suddenly his heartbeat shot up to 108 again, but then again started falling...This time a thought came to my mind, a frightening thought...He is dying and he is going to face the Creator...All the doors of repentance had been closed, everything that he could do for Allah :swt: had been done, his bag was packed...
As soon as the heartbeat started falling again, this thought kept growing inside me...I had to step outside the ICU for a minute to collect myself...I went back back in and saw him lying there, his heartbeat had become steady between 50 and 60, that's when tears fell from my eyes...I kept reciting Quls...Then suddenly his heartbeat started falling again, 44, 32, 26, 14 then 0...
I saw Amir bhai meet his death with whatever he had gained in this world...Whatever he had earned for the hereafter he took with him, and whatever he earned for Duniya, he left here...I was shaken and a cold feeling came over me...Ya Allah, will I be ready to meet You? Will I be in a condition to be in Your favour or disfavour? What if everything I had ever done was wasted because my intentions were wrong, what if none of my prayers, my good deeds, my works were thrown in my face and I was in Allah :swt:'s disfavour...
Ya Allah, guide the Muslims...Ya Allah, forgive our sins, Ya Allah, forgive our mistakes, Ya Allah, we are blind and have no eyes to see properly, lead us and guide us, Ya Allah make us worthy to be in your favour, Ya Allah, save us from your wrath which is terrible and bless us with your mercy which is limitless...Ya Allah guide us, Ameen...
Inna-Lillah-e-Wa-Inna-Ilaih-e-Rajioon...
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